[ 我的宝贝cc来kl玩 - 记 ]

才发现，原来最了解我的心情，是我好朋友，而不是我男友。

才发现，原来只有了解我的朋友，才能把我心里的结解掉。

才发现，原来我并不了解我自己，连我在心里想的是什么。

今天，

我的姐妹，cc来到了kl。

我们逛街买衣服。

晚上，

吃完饭后，我们谈起心事来~

我告诉他我的问题~

原来，

这一次的恋爱，

并不是我的错，

也不是他的错

只是我们只是遇到对方在错的时间

当我不懂得爱情时，我遇上了对的人

而当我学会了爱情，我遇上了错的人

之前的我，

爱乱发脾气，什么都是我认为我对就是我对

从没认为自己错

我这样的丑牛脾气，竟然会有那么多路过的人能忍受得了我

当我学会了爱情，觉得这样是错的，不该这样，

却遇上了错的人。

当一个开始学会爱情的人，遇上了一个完全不懂爱情的人，那会是怎样的？

还能继续下去吗？

还是需要我给点时间让他学习？

我怕我会受不了

我怕我会受伤

我没那么坚强，没那么有耐心。

但是为了这份爱，我会尽量

尽量，并不代表我不会会放弃

只是我会比较坚强的走下去

就算根在怎么坚强，都会有崩溃的一天。

现在的我的确是好累

好累他一直埋怨我

累他一直无理取闹

在他学习当中，我配合他得好累。

无所谓，我会尽量做到最好。

只要他能在我崩溃之前，学会爱情，那是我最大的功劳。

但是如果他还是没学会，

我也没办法，毕竟我也是好不容易才学会爱情。

我是经过很多的伤害，

很多的痛，才学会。

很感谢曾经伤害过我的人

因为他们的伤害，

我才学会忍耐，学会冷静，学会体贴，学会让 

还有学会什么是好坏。

感谢他们愿意成为我的过客，

耐心教我，让我伤害他们。

也许，我也只能成为现在那个他的过客，

我只能是他其中一个“老师”

并不是他的最后一个。

不是我不要成为他的最后一个，

但是我是不可能成为他的最后一个。

他需要学习~

这点~我明白~

毕竟他是初学者~

我也只能说，我会尽量忍，尽量配合。

让他打，让他骂，我愿意。

当有一天，如果他说他累了，

那我就会放了他，让他飞，

让他找到更好的配偶的。

也许，这就是爱情。

[ 无题 ]

当一个男人会因为他的女人出街时没打扮而生气的话，那是什么意思？

难道你就要我一直带着面具出现在你面前吗？？

如果是这样，我会好累~你不如不要爱我更好~

我算什么？对你来说，我是怎样的？

不打扮，是因为我为了你，决定了不去用装扮来勾引别的男生。

如果我不打扮，你就不要我了吗？
如果不打扮，你的心就不会被保住了吗？
如果不打扮，你就会因没有新鲜感，而对我冷淡了吗？

那如果我老了，丑了，皱了，弱了，憔悴了，你还会爱我吗？

如果你真正爱一个人，就算她长得很丑，你都还是会爱她。
相反的，如果你不爱她，就算她再怎么打扮都好，都留不住他的心。
如果那个男人是因为你很厉害打扮，而跟你在一起的话，那他不是真心的爱你。
如果是那个男人很爱你，就算你的头发乱的像草似的，他都会靠近你，不会埋怨什么~


你要我怎么打扮？
不，是因该问你，你为什么要我打扮？

IS going to KL (study)

go to kl on the 30th april ...
get ready for my room and much things


my room in PJ....kinda OLD... ><"
haiz...what to do, i think just for a while ny
im goin to move later
the condition in that room is too bad.. but big..



stay in PJ is near to UTAR, but far from INTI



i stay at PJ...to accompany mr.ong..



i plan to move to subang... but who will accompany me in subang?
one in subang, one in PJ ~ fark!




><"



haiz.....

4.18 - 4.21 *when mr.ong come back kuantan *

4.18

mr.ong finally come back kuantan

i damn miss him...

we went to TC for a walk

its been 1,2 weeks i din go out dy

dont feel like wanna go out when he's not bside me...

hand in hand , we hold each other n walk along the beach

inhale and feel the wind of the beach..

listening to the rhythm make by the ocean 

it feel so good...

i like the feel like this...its so relaxing 

i like the feel when i with you...

4.19

mr.ong come to my house to do revision

and i have nothing to do

so i bring out my draw n colour pencil from my room,

and colour my draw...

mr.ong took this picture

LOL XD~~~~

4.20

mr.ong took me to breakfast this morning at opposite SABS that restaurant..

he same like me, like to go to that place...

the smells of the coffee

the noisy sound from those ''old men''

i like that feel in the morning...

and so my dear too...

maybe we r from the same kampung,

so that we like that feel in the morning...

no youngsters thr~ =="

only me n him.. LOL XD

bring him to Barber shop to cut hair... ^^

 ahahaha ^^ guai guai let aunty cut your hair ya... dont move ya ^^

whoa he loos tidy and (handsome) after that ^.*

night :  go to giant to  buy table with his family...

LOL his that brother see siang , always cool cool de...

without expression when i saw him...(but sometimes he bully me ) T.T

Mr.ong father told him tomorrow need to go KT

to see his grandmother

no mood... tomorrow is 21st april

how he gonna celebrate my birthday?

and how if he cant come back on 22nd?

ITS MY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!! 

fine... his visit his grandma is more important ..

because when i think... he's grandma will go off anytime...

she's being take care of mr.ong many years dy...

i should not be so selfish...

i dont want mr.ong got any regret ...so i let him go ...

let him see his grandma...

my birthday is not that important..

we still can celebrate in the future...

its ok its ok...

 but my heart is not okey .....

what to do...its Doomed .....

4.17 * shopping day with my dear CC *

shopping day with my dear cc today....

last time when i go shopping with cc that time, she make me wanna keep on spend money.....

but this sunday, when we shopping that time, she ask me to save money....

LOL....this lady... make me feel so confused sometime .... = = "

last time, when we go shopping, 

she will say " eh eh...fifi... that one so nice... really nice.... i think u should buy it....!! "

but now, when i say " eh cc...!! this one very nice hor... i think i wanna buy it ! "

then she will say " u ar !! better save some money laa.... dont spend so much laa...haiyo !!! "

yor... im here to tell her, 

"CC, u really influence me a lot laa .....><" "

 

because u're my best friend.... forever...

so that i easily get influence by you... ^.*

she's going to melacca to study dy....

dont know whether still got chance to shopping with her again or not.....T.T

im here to tell her, GAMBATEH for her study...GOODLUCK...

and be SUCCESSFUL in her future....

ALL THE BEST my dear CC~ =')

4.13 * drawing drawing drawing....nothing to do *

i have nothing to do since i come bac from PLKN....

my life is so dark.......dark...... dark....... = = "

LOL..... my daily activity is sleep...eat.... and hanging on the phone.... 

a hyperactive girl like me, sit in a situation like this will drive me crazy... (really gonna crazy)

when always i want to step out my front door, my mum sure give me a bad sight...

and then i hav no mood to go out dy....( she was like a tiger ><")

haiz.... i only go out when mr.ong come back... 

this is what i do when boring.... ><" simply draw picture... 

>>>>>>>>>>>  next story  <<<<<<<<<<<<

LOL...i found my angpau in my drawer.... gosh....

all is 1 ringgit de, i have 42 ringgit here....

and i arrange it ,  this is what i have.... look this picture...

i so hope that all these RM1 can change to RM 100 ....whoa.. then i can be millionaire dy...

wakakaka ^.*

4.12 * theme-less*

Saturday evening, i have a farewell party in TC 

my friend, jun jie is going to KL to study soon

he will set out Sunday morning.

we talk about uni n college ...

most of them go to TARC

jong dong, miaw2, KC, keat go TARC study..

im the only one study at INTI in my gang...

chelsea is heading to SUNWAY

when i on my way to keat house to send him back,

he said he's not willing to his mum

he's quite worried his mum ...

since he is also a single child....same with me....

i was thinking

my feeling also will same like him when the moment i move to KL

he scare his mum will feel lonely

i also scare my mum will feel lonely too..

he worry his mum,

and so i worry my mum too...

he felt sour in his heart to leave his mum,

and so i felt the same too.. 

we are the same i think.. and also KC..

we are single child, sure feel the same...

haiz... what to do...

we need to go for our better future...and sacrifice our mum...

we gotta leave them... 

but they still in our heart...FOREVER....

more 3 weeks i'll be heading to KL...

LOL i cant hold my tears when i think about it...

hope everything will be okey.... and thanks for my dear always by my side and support me...

thanks a lot dear.... i love you...

no one can replace you in my heart~~ 

LOVE you ALEX ong.....